List of my PHOBIAS

basically i feel like im dying. and im smoking more cigarettes than ever. not getting sleep. and not eating.
so my last moments might be on corys couch. so dark...

i'm looking through the pop-up book of phobias right now...
here's a list of my phobias

-claustrophobia: anxiety experienced in tightly enclosed spaces.

-mysophobia: pathological fear of exposure to unsanitary or disease producing substances. (explains my public restroom fear, and also the obsessive washing of my hands)

-arachnophobia: profound distress caused by spiders.

-acrophobia: intense dread of heights.

-necrophobia: morbid dread of one's own demise. (see above paragraph)

i 'opposite of phobia' the following:
-comic books
-blogs
-shoegaze
-time travel
-the color black
-a certain girl
-monsters/ghouls
-amy winehouse
-titty tattoos


p.s. new song on my bad actress profile myspace.com/badactresstits
its like a knife to the part of your brain that makes think about things other than flowers and death and love and Jim and William Reid.

and like a love note in your denim jacket,
i am ccccccccccccccccccccccinfinity

bad dreams, toast with cream

i woke up really early this morning via a bad dream. i dreamt that my mother was telling me that someone had died. i couldn't tell if she was saying dad or grandma. so i was getting really frustrated because i couldn't understand her. then i woke up.

after i woke up i called starbucks to what time they opened. it is basically at the end of the drive way of the house im staying/got kicked out of. i saw brian wilson (the king of melodies and harmonies) at starbucks. walking very zombie-like. of course he was wearing one of those "hawaiian" shirts. fuuuck. he's a genius. in this same shopping center like a year and a half ago, he almost ran me over. again, very zombie-like trance thing happening. we had eggs 2 booths apart.

i also realized, within the past week, that i'm in love with amy winehouse. i bought the album yesterday. if anyone knows a super thin girl with siick tatts, a beehive and missing a tooth, let me know. i want to marry her. what a bad-asssssssssss.


chad